Silence is Indeed Only Silver

What ever happened to a good old fashioned conversation?

Love

Superbowl Sunday

I love the Saints, and they deserved their win tonight.

I was really annoyed that I had to come home early tonight because I was having one of those days where I just have to be around people to feel complete.

I don't know.

Get a load of this lady.

Ha. This is a disaster, does she not check out her butt before she gets out of the house?

I know I do.

Tomorrow is a biggie to look forward to. A day with Christine Shim!

Hm, my oh my we have not hung out in a while!

We're going to watch Dear John and make some tee's I'm super excited about. It's going to be fantastic.

Fierce!

Speaking of fierce, I've been watching Tyra's talk show lately.

Christine got me into it.

OOH, 2 vaginas and beauty advice, count me in!

Love

Cold and Pale.

Something to add..
http://sallileee.blogspot.com/2009/08/what-comes-first-chicken-mcnugget-or.html'

So this is how it feels, right?
To lose someone. I mean it's that feeling where you feel like they're not really gone.

December 6 2009, he passed away.

It was coming, it was just a matter of when.
We're all thankful he survived 5 more years when the doctors told everyone he had 6 months.
We're thankful because those 5 years were the time he needed to finish his job here on earth.

I remember every year on my birthday, December 5th, he would send me a birthday card, send it so that I would get it in the mail exactly on the 5th.
I knew he was too weak now to take care of that stuff, but I still wondered.
The next day when I got the news, I felt, he was more than just weak, he was almost too far gone.
I'll never forget the feeling I felt when he sent me those cards.

I honestly thought I'd be aloof to my parents death at this point in my life.
But this experience made me realize,
I'm not going to be okay.
In time, but not then and there.




Love Less than 3. Love Love.

Funny the way it is.

I don't really have much to write about, but I thought my dusty blog which I haven't touched since October should be taken care of.

The Twilight saga's movie interpretations are a sensitive topic for me. There just isn't chemistry between Kristen and Rob. But I don't want to be whining about something that can't be altered anymore.

Nothing much is going through my life, the holidays are coming. I know a lot of people feel this way but every year I'm less and less enthusiastic about them. It's always been disappointing ever since I was old enough to know better than Santa. Eventually I gave up expecting anything.

Last year was better than most, but all for the wrong reasons. Nothing can really top it, probably for a while.

Today I came upon a revelation, but how pathetic is it that when I came to write about it, I'm drawing up blank.

Oh my gosh, can you believe it's already coming to the end of November?

I remember sitting in LA expecting the rest of the year to drag on real slow, but really, it was really easy.

I have nothing to live for these days. I live for the thrill of just living, there's nothing much to look upon. I haven't decided if I like that, or hate it.

I'm really excited for black friday, who isn't right?

I think sometimes I have a problem with spending money. It feels really good.

I know why people say

money does not buy happiness

but at this point in my life, it really really does.

Am I a loser for saying that?

Everyone is at different sides with Sarah Jessica Parker,

is she ugly? or is she pretty?

Love

2 bags of Ricola cough drops, and I blame the media.

Which one is better? Knott's Scary Farm? or Universal's Horror Nights?

I heard the Horror Nights are sick, but then again Knott's Scary Farm is classic.

I would love to go to both of them, but I doubt I can?

Wake up Tmobile!

I probably know about 20 people with a tmobile sidekicks that are completely useless now. But I've been really lucky.

I'm shooting for a Blackberry.

Ooh! I watched the Invention of Lying. Yeah it's the movie with Rob Lowe that I talked about in the last entry. I was originally going to watch Whip It, but the timing didn't work out. At one point in the movie, it got really sad. Overall, it was an okay movie, makes me think how different a world would be without lies. It even changes the way we would talk to people. Everything you think about is displayed for the whole world to hear. It's a simpler world..

I apologize for my pointless, and pathetic entry.

Love

Intoxicated by Expectations.

"Responding and adjusting to the environment as well as growing and developing are other characteristics shared by all living organisms." Biology 1.


I think a worst a person can do is go through life bitter, and so this is what we have to do, adjust and grow up. Science calls it homeostasis. But what they don't realize is the emotional strain you have to withstand in this.
Besides the people here have been so good to me, how could I have been so non-responsive? I guess for a while I was stuck in some weird depression of this place. Out of nowhere it grabbed me and tightened it's grip on me.
Today it struck me that all the routines, laughter, and friendships are so familiar to me.
I knew this was going to happen sometime, this adjusting thing. I never expected it to come so soon, I'm not complaining believe me. It's sort of some comfort, or maybe just relief. Whatever it is, I hope it lasts.


I forget what it feels like to have a crush. But on Sunday I remembered, when I saw the guy I liked for the longest time ever. I know it's completely cheesy, but I fell in like with him like no other.
And on that Sunday, when I remembered, I regretted just a little. Everything he did, every word he said ended up behind and over me. I got through the days for some stupid boy, so come to think of it, that stupid boy kept me alive.
I don't know where I was going with this, it's just. whatever.
I know it was completely pathetic of me, and I don't know why girls let themselves get like this. And five stars for the girls who draw lines at a certain point. I've been training myself a bit to be more like that.


Today is Thursday and I am very excited for an oddball reason.
I'm so excited for next Thursday too, when Christine is getting ungrounded! Ha, go congratulate her or something. Buy her some tofu., I don't know.


ROB LOWE is in some new movie. Just saying.









Love Love Love,

My non-existent hips don't lie.

I'd probably die for people I would live for, would you?

Hey guys, what's with all the vampire thing in the media these days. I guess just because Twilight was a big hit, they feel like all vampire books should be turned into a picture. But we all know, the only way Twilight could've reached that far was because of the readers of Stephenie Meyer, because the movie did not do her books justice.

I saw the episode of Vampire diaries last night, and I wish I didn't have to wait so long for the next episode.

Are the A-list books any good? I'm thinking about reading all of it before the school-year ends.

I swear I had things to talk about but it just floated away.. I need to start writing things down.

But to fill in my missing words, are these pictures.

Haa, our stupid close ups.

I was breathing..

Love

I had a crush on Bart in the Simpsons episode when he turns into a teen.

Compassion and cruelty reside side by side in one heart. No one is ever one or the other.

I apologize for the lack of updates on this, everything this week and the week before has been slow, but speedy. If that makes any sense at all.

If my title creeped you out a little, rest assured. It was many years ago, and so much younger.

So this video, I made it couple days ago.. and so most of what I'm blabbing about is good as old. I was actually going to delete it and make a new one, but I spent about 15 minutes of my life on this. And these days I'm all about not wasting my time.

WOW. My video didn't upload. So the description below wouldn't make sense to you at this point. I'll try getting the video to work.

Description:

My mistake with the headphones, it's the Oboe.

Wow, I just heard me saying roughly about 7 'like's in one sentence.

Ha, when my brother comes in the room and I'm listening to him, I'm super still.

It is getting boring to me, I'm starting to wonder if you guys are going to watch through it. I'm sucking it up and watching it to finish my descriptions for you.

Wow, when I'm holding up my feet, it doesn't even look like it's my feet I'm holding up.

I was actually supposed to meet up with Christine this day but ended up making a lousy video instead. This day was truly gayed.

By the way, I lost that frog. Guilty.

I need to get my bangs cut.

Another one of my mistakes, it is Monday and everything is settled in. My family pretty much worked to dawn, and things came around pretty quickly. I did not have to wait a month for the furniture. Although, I'll probably have to wait around for my posters.

If you guys are wondering why I said 'harem' in harem pants so weird, I was being a loser because I was on the verge of choking on my spit and ruining the video.

I drag on one topic too long for a human's attention span, it's unbearable.

Overall, a pretty lousy video.

I've been emailing with Kit these days, nice change because I never use my email. It's salli_lee@yahoo.com

Just saying.

Tomorrow, I'm finally getting to see if I can even attend school on it's first day, Thursday. Super anxious because I'm sort of anal about this kind of stuff. Christine is probably annoyed of how much I've complained about school applications.

I've got some tulle to make tutus but I need a good tutu tutorial, because the ones on Youtube are sucking.

How were your labor days? Usually I would always go out with the fam. But we spent today finishing the move-in. Is it weird to say I'm worrying about my parents. They're not as young and resilient as they used to be. I'm afraid that they'll pass out or something from exhaustion.

Audrey Kitching made some Designers Against Aids shirts for H&M. I really want this one, cus it's so fierce. I wanted to check out Katy's and Yelle, but I never got around to looking up when it will be out, or was out.

I want one of those fake Glad scented candles. That flicker and all that. My mom doesn't trust me with one in my room, I know I feel so lame. So I'll have to settle for the fake ones, they're pretty convenient.

I'm sorry this entry is so long, I'm just trying to fit all these things that's been on my mind. But I'll save you guys from the rest and update that later on, if I don't forget.

I'll put some pictures up ASAP because I finally got batteries for my camera!

Good day, and good night.

Love

Fml.

Because I am shallow as the rain's puddle.

I failed this test that was given, and now I have no right to ask of more because if they weren't what I'd imagined, I'd probably toss them out.

Love

So what's it to you?

This past week, I was under an emotional push. A damsel in distress if you will, until a knight in shining armor dropped by. But before you all think it's all a love story after that. Rest assured, I'm not falling for some idiot who think he can take an advantage of me. Though it doesn't mean I didn't need him, he helped me in more ways he knows. So I thank the person in control of these things for the perfect timing.

Today was the new episode of .. drumroll puh-lease.

10 Things I Hate About You!

How sad is it that this show got me through the day today? I can feel something so much more than a teenage romance coming on between Patrick Verona and Kat which makes me giddy. Giddier than a love-struck schoolgirl, if you know what I'm saying. I like saying his full name, Patrick Verona, and for Kat, what is her last name?

So I actually had to give out a statement today. Sitting there in the midst of tension and old people, I realized what a joke this world is. Sure there are serious topics, but what matters is taken so lightly. When truth is what counts, here we are building the world up on lies. I wish not to be taken part in it, but there is not one being in this world who was able to conquer lies.

People claim the kids from the city are missing out on a lot, such as the earth's starry nights.

But to me, the city lights are my stars. They're all just sparkles, what difference does it make, when the sparkles are from difference does it make when they're from different sources?

We're young and restless. But today, we're possessed Japanimations.

Love to my dear Christine

& Love to everyone else

Boy, girl. Girl, boy.

I've been delaying my blog posts for a while now.

I don't know if it's because I'm lazy or because I didn't want to start talking about something I do not want to confront yet.

Do you guys ever feel uneasy about what could be yours? Like you don't want to lose it, but it's something that does not belong to you in the first place?

It's like the fine line between jealousy and possessive greed.

I'll talk to you guys again in the future.

Love

Hello.

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please and thank you

Love

What comes first, the Chicken McNugget or the Egg McMuffin?

500 Days of Summer wasn't a love story.. but it was a refreshing twist.

I'm trying to teach myself how to play Boston by Augustana. 

So far, I'm pretty dang close to giving in, but I'm hoping I won't. For once.

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Check out that link up there ^

Right now, almost 5 million are affected by an evil out of the 6 billion in the world. 

This evil tends to drain so much from our families and friends. 

Yes, it is a disease.

A disease with no positive known cure. 

If you already pretty much guessed what this is, you're right. It's cancer.

So I want to talk about a little story of mine I witnessed.

I have a pastor in my church, who's been preaching all his life. And to prove it, he was my mom's youth group leader in high school way back when. 

This guy was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer stage 3 about 3 years ago. Now, I don't know if you know, but pancreatic cancer at it's 3rd stage is fatal. You could leave earth in the next hour or the next month. It's unpredictable and critical. He was in a horrible condition, but to some miracle, he survived. I to this day believe it is the power God holds that determines when you will pass on. 

He battled cancer, and won.

Happy ending.

But just a couple months ago, he found out that he now had lung cancer. We were all worried but were confident he could win this war again. However, he's been through too much of the medication and chemo therapy that now his body isn't responding to any of them. Which means he can't be helped by our technology, and he has to fight this purely on his raw will.

We are yet to hear more of this story.

The fact is, he won't have what it takes to survive this second time. I knew him all my life. The last time I saw him, he was half the weight he used to be, at the very least. He didn't have much strength to talk. But he managed to compose a face that is comforting to everyone no matter how much we knew.

I'm not sure if you'll understand what I mean, but I'm trying to say if it weren't for my grandmother's death, I would still be a little kid that hasn't been hit with the fact of death yet.

That's how much more I believe in life than death.

Love

Spring rolls,the Kardashians, and some legit human beings.

Today feels like it's been a long day. Like 2 days combined. Maybe it's all the driving. But it sure feels nice to be back home on my bed.

I'm warming up my cold lap with my laptop, it can be the best heater around. I'm literally stuffed, I feel like if another bite goes down my throat, I will suffocate and die.. This is because I found my 2nd favorite dish, spring rolls. I never really cared much for those, until I made them at home, it is so much better than buying them. It is definitely worth getting your hands dirty for. What's my numero uno favorite dish you ask? Well, that's a story for another day. Someday, I will take a whole entry dedicating it to it. Deal?

A new episode of "Keeping it up with the Kardashians" is on at 10 tonight, which happens to be one of my favorite shows along with "It's on with Alexa Chung", and "10 Things I Hate About You".

Today I visited my future home for the next 6 months. It is a tiny place, and I will probably try to spend as much time out. The only upside to this place is the recreation room because I'm in need of their treadmill and cycling. But I probably won't even use it when someone's there, because it is just an embarrassment, making them hear me huff and puff. And now, I don't want to talk about this anymore.

As I mentioned on my video blog, the movie Julie and Julia is just darling, you must go watch it. Speaking of movies, is 500 Days of Summer any good? Half the people I know complained that it was horrible, and the other half fell in love with it. They're all so misleading. I'll probably like it because I'm not much of a touch critic, and I love myself a good love flick. 

So today I wore my bamboo earrings and everyone in church thought it was pretty funny. When we all got treated to some Starbucks, they told the baristas my name was Shanaynay. Which pretty much sums up this picture..

Speaking of my church, our retreat pictures were uploaded on Facebook. And they have this one picture of myself which I found yesterday. Basically, your partner and yourself had to help each other get across the tightrope, but we eventually fell. And the guys happened to take a perfect picture.

 

ha. ha. just zoom in, and LOOK at my feet.

This next one, no one would be able to resist but to put this up.

 

Brian is a football player. Paul is going to college.

When they were walking the rope, they were whispering "I love you" in each other's ears. I know, adorable, right?

***

One of these guys threw me a lifeline. Or, both of them. But one in particular, because I wrote about him. 

 

He opened my eyes to the life I've been living.

Is this entry getting too long? I feel like I have so much to report, but I'll leave it at this for now.

Real people wouldn't act on their whim when it comes to people they adore, right? This is seriously an answer I'm desperately searching for, so I'm going to say it isn't rhetorical.

Love

The truth of my own words hit me hard.

I just saw the funniest video Christine put up on twitter. It's this japanese contest winner of some sort and she visits the set of Harry Potter, and meets Rupert Grint, that lucky dame. But the whole thing is just hilarious. 

Orbit came up with a new flavor of gum. I decided to try it, I mean why not. I'm a daredevil if you say so, a risk-taker. Ha. Strawberry-mint. 

But  I didn't like it, a clear disappointment.

I think it's a nasty little invention. 

Next time I see a new flavor, I'm sticking to my Cinnamon gums.

I think I'm posting a whole lot of blogs these days. I think I put one up everyday of the week this week. 

One of my pet peeves are kids and sex. I mean kids my age and sex together. Why are you in such a rush to lose your virginity? To me, it's just pitiful and rash. I'm guessing kids that go through with it this young think of it just as a physical connection. But to my understanding, it's just so much more than that, and I'm dying for them to acknowledge this. I think most of us just believe too much of what the media feeds us, and it really can't be healthy. The media's one big joke, and I'm trying to be smart enough to realize it's not at all like how it goes.

So, I want to be pure until marriage. That's what I want, and I'm not even gonna tell myself I'll bend the curve when I find the One, because that's just weakening the bar. Both you and your partner have to be ready to accept this way of love and keep it. I know this might sound weird, but I've had a recently married couple tell others and myself about how they needed to keep it clean throughout their dating life. They both admitted on how hard it was. Because in the end, who's even going to know. But what it's really about is respect for yourself more than the respect people will give you.

It's just a way of life I chose. Thought I'd share that with you kids.

I'm here looking online for some vintage-y, antique-y posters for my new room. I also got the new Ikea catalog next to me. Every time the topic of me moving comes up in a conversation, and I repeat to different people over and over that I'll be leaving LA, it reminds me the truth of my own words I did not hear before. Every time I say the words "I'm moving" it hits me in different ways. 

And that makes me think. How would other people interpret whatever anyone else says?

I'm sure everyone understands it in a whole new level than what others meant it to mean. 

Which changes communication entirely, in ways we won't even think of.

Love

D) It is written

So I watched "Slumdog Millionaire" today,

I feel very slow and out of style watching it like a year or so late.

But I must say, it was as good as all the award shows put it. 

I have nothing really good to ramble on about today, but my dear Christine feels like she's in the mood to read a blog. And whatever she wants, she gets. That brat.

I feel like everyone is controlled, or even tortured by their desires. How can such accessories in life have so much authority over us? The spectral presence they hold,  making them an impetuous desire haunts each one of us day and night. 

Some day when the world is good, we'll be freed from all this.

This is the inner-chola in me.

Love

Hi, I don't know where I'll be living a week from today.

I made some hair bows from scraps I found. 

The first one is ivory tulle, with star gems in them.

The second is some material which I don't know the name of. But it's pink and shiny and I'm on board with anything pink and shiny.

Do you like? or is it too much for me to pull off?

Mm, and the title pretty much sums everything I have on my mind.

Love

The week of August 9th is the official Cat Week

So what am I now supposed to do, what Is there to do after all your tears have been dried out, when what you want is too painful, and what you don’t want is so convenient. When what seems like you can’t live without is discord.

It’s weird what kinds of physical pains emotional pains bring out, isn’t it?

As much as I’ve repeated before that I’d rather feel pain than nothing at all, like that one Three Days Grace song, times like this make me want to go back on my word. Because I feel I’m too weak to deal with this agony, and I’m sure a lot of you all understand.

Take a look at my daily horoscope for August 10

Sagittarius

Believe it or not, you can change things and still have time left over for fun. All that energy isn't going to do you much good if you're just sitting there, so get out in the world and make a difference.

I decided to put this up, because this sort of had a deeper meaning than what it is on the surface. 

I would probably be able to die for who I would live for, is there anyone who you would give up your own life for? Because in the end, isn't all life equal in value?

Love

Triceps? Biceps?

So I'm back today from that short get away. 

This retreat, I gained a lot more grace than I had expected, it was actually quite mind blowing. I'm just so bummed it lasted only so long. I met a new friend. And oh man, this guy is only a junior now? He just captured my heart. He has so much love flowing in him, so much passion, and I've grown to adore him so much. I mean I probably only spent a couple of minutes throughout the whole weekend actually getting to know him, but it was incredible how much respect he gained from me. I can only wish I get to meet him sometime again and really befriend him. He puts me to shame, and his intentions make me tear up every time. This guy was legit, I mean he was the real deal, you dig? He wasn't an imitation and you can tell this guy is just genuinely good. It's sad, I don't think he knows I feel this way about him. Ha, and it can't feel any more weirder to praise someone so human. 

And here's an answer to your question.. 

Expressing myself in this way gives me the goosebumps, I mean in writing, being able to put my thoughts on the screen, on paper. My words are my friends. Because you know that everyone in the world isn't as privileged as us here.

I hope it's not so weird to say, I love him in some ways.

And honestly, I can't say I wasn't inspired by him.

But then again, I can't say I wasn't inspired by anyone there, all the teachers and volunteers really got a hold of my heart.

I think the elevation difference up there made my skin really dry or something? 

Because I put on like heavy duty lotion 10 times a day but it still didn't help the cracking and what not of my hands and feet, it's actually painful. But now that I'm back here in the city, it's all good. Just got to heal.

Speaking of things to heal. My arms are mad sore. I'm guessing it was the rock climbing. But it could've been the canoeing. Who knows for sure. 

And speaking of canoeing, my canoe was flipped over. I wish I can say it was the highlight of the weekend, but frankly I can't. I'm dying for you all to catch the enthusiasm of the tone I used there.

Does anyone read my blogs? I think it's only my beloved Christine who reads it. So, here's a shout out to you girlfriend. And what the hey, a picture for you too.

But why does that matter right? As long as I get to keep some record of my thoughts these days because I have no idea where it's flying off to these days.

Love

Like the word: fluke.

I'm back like I said I would.

I'll be out of LA for a retreat this weekend.

When I was writing the blog this afternoon I had so much to write about, that I decided I'd make a second blog but now that I'm here, I forgot everything I was gonna tell you kids about.

Oh! Jasmine was over just an hour ago or so. We watched The Haunting in Connecticut, this was no joke, the first time we've hung this entire summer.

Dearest Christine, I'm thanking you. 

Because I ended up eating the granola bars today.

I developed the pictures on my disposable camera, it was a big disappointment. I knew I had taken the pictures way too close for it to be clear enough, all the pictures turned up fuzzy and gay. But I'll take that as the beauty of its kind, their only choice in life is to produce untouched and raw images. Where's the fun when the pictures have been tweaked?

Speaking of photos, I did get the batteries for my digital camera, to put some pictures up. But frankly, I am just too lazy right now to be doing that. I'll try and get to it when I'm back from the retreat.

And, speaking of the retreat, I'm packing right now, and have been packing for quite some time. Truthfully, I really despise packing. I honestly hate that feeling in your gut that tells you that you've forgotten to take something. I hate the way you have to try and coordinate all your clothes so you don't look like you're a tourist. I'm still waiting on my brain to tell me I've forgotten my underwear and all that. 

This picture is seriously heart breaking. Makes you think twice before you eat that animal, don't it?

I just saw a back-to-school sale commercial, is it just me, or does everyone's heart tumble a little when they see one. I get trapped in some depression when the first round of back-to-school sale commercial hits. I wonder how grownups feel about it.. Are they happy kids are back into school? Or are they bummed summer's ending? 

But between all that goes on in the world, I always manage to pick me out of the chaos, out of everything. I straighten myself in whatever way I need to get through. I guess that's what they mean by saying that everything in life has 2 meanings. Like the gift of burden, how bittersweet. The way I'm getting through life right now, clearly, the only way I might be surviving.

Love

Paper Hearts Contest

I feel as if it is like human nature for us to stand in line. This second nature of ours' really had me waiting for it to be my turn up the bat. 

Nothing in life comes without waiting.

So I'm actually here to brag about my new cellphone charms! Like you guys are even interested.

This one's some chocolate covered dessert. I think it's a donut, I'm not too sure though.

This one is this like mixture of charms or something, it has a bow, a cherry, a heart and some pearly balls.

This next one is the one and only, ms Strawberry Shortcake. I just love her.

I think I'll be back later tonight to talk some more.

Love

Nature Valley Crunchy Granola Bars

My insides are really not that good right now, I need a healthy dose of some music. 

So my parents are being gay again and now I'll be moving to Torrance, attending West High. 

I've put up with all of this, but it is just too much for me when they deviate from their plans just as I was starting to get used to the idea.

I see no way where we'll benefit from Torrance except for the fact that it'll mean shorter commute for my daddy. I can't wait for a world of my own where I don't have to be dragged around by my parents' decisions. 

On a brighter note, I spent the day over at Christine's. Way fun. While I was there, I got three more cellphone charms. Finally making my collection a little less awkward. 

My camera is out of battery again, so I won't be able to upload any pictures until I buy batteries. I can't believe it's already the 5th of August 09.

I really don't like this mental countdown I have going on in my head of my days left with Christine, the days left in LA.

I know on one of my first blogs, I wrote for my hatred of this place, but in this short amount of time, I've found out how much I adore this city and my life here. 

Nothing much to report after that.

Love

Sometimes to find truth, one must move mountains.

We judge too much, all of us.

I really want to see this .. impossible world of tolerance.

Let's not be so fearful of the world of my dreams.

Love

Needles and Ink Will Keep Us Together.

I'm on my couch watching Parental Control, this show is ridiculously funny. Their staged reactions make me laugh. I'm eating this thing that's like a sweet croissant filled with cream cheese, does that sound weird? Because it must be the best thing I've ever tasted. I've taken Advil 4 times in the past 4 hours, but I still feel like I'm gonna pass out from cramps. 

Christine Shim, to call her my best friend seems like an understatement. This girl really seems to understand everything I mean, and vise versa. I feel like it's against some nature to not be able to spend high school with her. How is it that everything has its stinking timing?

Love

Decorate

People have come up with thousands of ways to help out other people.

I've actually helped part in this one organization called One Million Ways.

The first part in the plan of One Million Ways

 is for you to accomplish a good deed (i.e. holding a door for someone, helping your friend study, recycling, etc.) let your imaginations run wild with what you can do for someone, and then spread the word. You introduce the idea and mission of this organization to others, and pass on your bracelet-which can be purchased for $1. Now, these bracelets each come with a tracking number which serves the purpose for you to go onlin

e to the website, onemillionways.org and log in your good deed with the bracelet's tracking number. 

Here's the important part, with every good deed you log into this website, the sponsors of the organization donate $1 to parts of the world stricken by starvation. So each time you decide to do good and post it online, you're helping people around the world.

The person you passed on your bracelet to now must serve a good deed to another and will log in their good deed.

The fun part, you can always go online and type in your old bracelet number and it'll show all the people, and good deeds the bracelet has passed onto. When I recently checked the bracelet I purchased and passed on, it had over 35 posts and counting, in zip codes out of California. It blew my mind, my bracelet donated over $35 to people who's in need of help in foreign countries.

This is such a simple way to help someone around you out, as well as the rest of the world.

Check out their website, onemillionways.org

Or, come to me because I've still got some bracelets to give out!

Is there any goods you guys are involved with? Tell me about it, I'd love to take part.

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Mon Coeur

My heart seems as if it is floating in discomfort yet drowning in misery. It's attacked by indecision but guarded with shame. My insides are in chaotic discord, and today seems to be the first I wailed with genuine misery in the longest time.

I would probably never find pure hatred for my mother, but I'm sure as hell close to it.

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Hot Diggity

18th of July, a day spent with Christine, my technicality-obsessed sister.

Today, or yesterday, Christine would argue was a day I needed, definitely. We went to Audrey Kitching's yard sale, which was totally not what we expected. In good ways and bad, depending on how we decided to interpret it. 

And practically spent the rest of the day crafting. Things like this are so much fun with her, I wish we get more time for this kind of stuff. And we'll live seeing rainbows and unicorns, farting fairy dust, pooping gems, flying the land of magic, eating gumdrops and cotton candy!.. aha, fail.

According to our plans, we'll meet again Monday, which makes me giddier than a lovestruck schoolgirl. 

I'm waiting for this new week to start, mainly because it means this old week's ending.

I'm sorry my face looks like it could be used to induce vomiting.

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I guess I'm just not cool enough to be a Mac person.

Today was seriously a day where I couldn't put my mind to ease, until now.

I feel like the day's worries are behind me even though I have no idea what tomorrow has to offer.

Listen here, I'm finally writing this entry on my bed, thanks to my new Macbook. Now even purchasing this did not go smoothly. Long story short, my Macbook got mixed up at the store and I went all through this trouble to find it. I should've kept it, it was better than the one I meant to buy. Well, can't regret it now, can I?

These kinds of ridiculous things always has a way to find me.

The title serves the purpose to say I can't get my vidchat to work.

Another problem for me.

Boo.

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True That.

Yesterday, I watched the premiere of that new show, "10 things I hate about you"? or "10 things I like about you". I forget the title.
Strangely enough, I liked it. It's so ridiculous I find it pretty funny. Especially this one guy that likes Bianca. AHAA, he reminds me of myself in some ways, except the Y chromosomes of course. I feel like this show will become my new obsession.
Speaking of TV, aside from this new show, my favorite TV show these days is "It's on with Alexa Chung" on MTV. It's a talk show, though what first drew me in was her British accent. Nothing with a British accent gets by me. But when I really got into it, I found her sense of humor matching mine. I have a feeling if she and I were friends, we'd laugh around a lot and get along pretty well. Anyway, I thought I'd mention my new favorites, "It's on with Alexa Chung". Teehee.

I'm starting to read the Twilight saga again,
I'm on the second book, New Moon. I'm worried I might finish it before Jasmine has a chance to return me my Eclipse, the third book. Yes, that scares me. I'm such a scaredy cat. I fear practically everything. Pitiful.


To my desmay, I'm definately going to try not to find any hate for that girl. She really is going over the edge on everything and its just a tad bit more bragging for anyones tastes.
Who the hell cares though, right?
I'll just be the bigger person, because I'm sure thats just about a new concept for her. Especially because when I did mention it earlier to her, I felt like she thinks that is just beyond her abilities. -______-
How will she get through people that'll have more control than her?


Right now, I'm patiently waiting to get a macbook. AS if that's even coming anymore now.




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Tweet

I finally got started on Twitter again, it's acting weird though. Says my email doesn't exist or something. Why can't anything run smoothly these days?
By the way, it's twitter.com/salli_lee

And what's with that girl that can't keep herself controlled. Your lack of self control is not only making you even more angry, it's ticking the time on everyone else' patience. It doesn't even matter anymore that you knew everyone would see what you meant, because that kind of venting was just immature and pitiful.

You would never know how much you remind me of this crazy little sweets. Ahaa, it's actually quite comical you think you're just the best thing anyone could ever meet, but all you created yourself into was a nasty girl that can't seem to get anything more.

On a brighter note,

Today is my brother's birthday. WHOO! happybirthdaytoyouhappybirthdaytoyou,happybirthdaytomybrother,happybirthdaytoyou!

Thanks, people really wanted to know that. Bahahahaa, fail.

I can't wait for all these things Christine and I have planned this summer. It's just some kind of high that I can't explain. High off all this time and ideas we have. It's what gets me going, it's so nice I have something like this.

But what I really hate right now is what you're doing to yourself.

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The Ring of Mars

I'm not in the big blogging mood today.
Everything I do these days I must push myself to do.

I feel as a believer, I've always wished upon the stars, only night after night.
Dreaming of everything that could or should be.
But I realize, I'm only human, and I can only believe in these stars to a certain extent. So I'm done waiting for something to happen anytime soon, because I keep seeing my dreams ricocheting off the stars and down to my hearts again.

It's like looking for the ring of Mars.
Useless, and pathetic.


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SoyMilk and Burgers

I really love this song Come Pick Me Up by Ryan Adams.
I've had a dream about this random guy in school I don't even know for a couple nights now.
It's really weird, he just keeps popping up in parts of my dreams, and that is all I remember.
I got a nasty bruise on my toes because I fell. In my own home, it's just ridiculous.
I haven't written anything serious in a while, I should start soon enough.
I'm just drinking some soymilk to balance out the nasty burger I had. yum. That's how it is with me, when I have something bad, it just makes sense that it's not so bad anymore when you have something good.
Today I got all dressed up and cleaned, but I did not go outside at all.
Story of my sad day.

I hope I have something to write about soon.


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DiaUno

Dia uno of summer vacation!

I thought I can upload all the pictures from graduation, but after uploading three, I realized how long this will take. And I'm just not willing to spend so much of my time on this blog.

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Back.

Ooh, I forgot to add a little somethingsomething about my weekend away.

It was so much better than what I had expected. Because all this time, I had thought this weekend away was going to cause trouble, but I came back feeling so much better than what I felt before, heavy and confused.

AHA, it WAS a casino resort, so nothing much to do for me there. But that's exactly what I needed.

All I did was swim, nap, and read. Eat of course..

We had a cabana by the pool, and it was actually quite sweet. My body got tanned, for I haven't been swimming in a whilee.

Anyways, something about every detail of that place was just so adorable, I wanted nothing more than that.

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Plans

Currently, listening to Satisfaction-Benny Benassi

Oh my my, how times have gone.
I will no longer be able to call myself an 8th grader.
I've been waiting for this week, for as long as I can remember. I've told myself I will never miss a place like JB, and at some point I even made myself believe this. But now that I'm graduating on this Friday, I feel nothing but shame for myself. Shame that I spent almost all the days here, wishing it was my last. Because now, even though I am so ready for my life ahead, I feel my last days should be spent longing it to last.

Having that said,
I'm still stoked for my plans up ahead.
Friday, I will be culminating in the 9AM ceremony. I'll most likely be going out to lunch with my parents, and meeting up with Kit and crash BC for a while.
By the time the 1:30PM ceremony ends, we'll be back to take pictures and such with the others.
I'll be back home to change and all while Christine has some time with her fam, and then she'll hit my pad.
We then are going Somewhere to look for circular barbells. We'll probably be so excited that we jump home all the way, and pierce that septum.
-Happy Dance-
And I'm prayingg she can do mine like a pro, because we're ditching them.
And I can do her's like a pro, because she'll literally slice my nose off if I don't.

Then, we're going to blow off that adrenaline going out for a movie.

Hopefully we can have a sleepyovery like a sleepyovary.
BAHAHAA!
And the next day, go to the Northridge Mall. Do some jewelry grabbing, and end up at my Praise Night. Where we'll scream and jump and whatnot, praising our hearts out, hopefully freeing me of all my troubles, and come home satisfied.

Graduation pictures, and such coming.

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Weekend Away.

This weekend, I'll be at Haarahs.
What I'll do there? I have no clue, I don't even want to go.
Last thing I need is to be away.



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Irony

Have you ever experienced so much confusion, it almost even made sense?
To my desmay, confusion has been building up on me until today, when finally I exploded. And all these people by me trying to help me out confuses me even more for I know exactly what's going through their minds.
Caught the irony?
This now, is not the thing that confuses, but depresses me, this person that is beating herself up for what I'm going through, like it's her fault, depresses me. I have no courage to speak up and reassure her that I'll get through this like any other times I fell down. She is the one who've seen me take my first steps, and was there to comfort me when I tripped and fell from those first steps.
Yeah, stupid thing to be afraid of, but honestly, thinking of it just scares the hell out of me.

Being here right now, makes me a coward.
How would you make yourself,
braver?



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If

Everyone has had their time in the sun, the moments in their life where everything seemed magic, and nothing could falter.
For me, this period of time was 2008ish.
I'm not suggesting at all, that this would be the end of my happiness, or the best of what I have left of my life, but merely dreaming how great it would be to go back to this time.

It would be great, but IF I were to be rewinding my life back so this year would repeat itself over and over, I'd truely be some sort of pain inducer.
Why you ask?

Take a look at all these disasters that has happened in the course of my happy 2008ish



January : 300 killed in Kenya, burning thousands of homes, farms, and property.

February: Venezuelen plane crashes killing all passengers.

March: Ohio, 13 die, hundreds evacuated from their own homes due to floods.

April: 80 people have died, and at least 75,000 infected in Rio de Janeiro from dengue fever outbreak

May: Tornadoes in several states of the United States of America killing hundreds in just one day.

June: Typhoon hits a ferry killing 800 passengers and crew.

July: Excessive rain in Ukraine and Romania causes up to $300 million in damage and kills 20.

August: When hurricane hits, the whole Caribbean is left homeless, and starving.

September: 100s die, and leaves hundreds more injured from collapse of religious temple.

October: Earthquake hitting Pakistan killing hundreds and leaving 15,000 homes damaged

November: Fires consume 40,000 acres.

December: 11 people are buried in avalanches, 3 found, all left buried.

If I were to repeat this year for who knows how long, the rest of the world suffering in agony will be repeating possibly the worst year of their life, because of my own selfish desires.

I may be going through tough times, but would I want somebody to be reliving their happiness just for themselves and let me rot in some pit of down lows?



Just as that, I may be in the lowest bottom of my life so far, but this just means I got more space to shoot up in to the highest moments of my life.



Clear as that.





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Broken

Life in Los Angeles is a broken record.
It seems to me I've trapped myself in a room, a room where I can't enjoy the world's sunshine nor the breeze. Where I can't feel the world's pains and joys.
Where I can't hear their laughter, nor sufferings.
I've been locked up in this room because I'm afraid to hear beyond the part of the song LA's broken record offers.



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