Intoxicated by Expectations.

"Responding and adjusting to the environment as well as growing and developing are other characteristics shared by all living organisms." Biology 1.


I think a worst a person can do is go through life bitter, and so this is what we have to do, adjust and grow up. Science calls it homeostasis. But what they don't realize is the emotional strain you have to withstand in this.
Besides the people here have been so good to me, how could I have been so non-responsive? I guess for a while I was stuck in some weird depression of this place. Out of nowhere it grabbed me and tightened it's grip on me.
Today it struck me that all the routines, laughter, and friendships are so familiar to me.
I knew this was going to happen sometime, this adjusting thing. I never expected it to come so soon, I'm not complaining believe me. It's sort of some comfort, or maybe just relief. Whatever it is, I hope it lasts.


I forget what it feels like to have a crush. But on Sunday I remembered, when I saw the guy I liked for the longest time ever. I know it's completely cheesy, but I fell in like with him like no other.
And on that Sunday, when I remembered, I regretted just a little. Everything he did, every word he said ended up behind and over me. I got through the days for some stupid boy, so come to think of it, that stupid boy kept me alive.
I don't know where I was going with this, it's just. whatever.
I know it was completely pathetic of me, and I don't know why girls let themselves get like this. And five stars for the girls who draw lines at a certain point. I've been training myself a bit to be more like that.


Today is Thursday and I am very excited for an oddball reason.
I'm so excited for next Thursday too, when Christine is getting ungrounded! Ha, go congratulate her or something. Buy her some tofu., I don't know.


ROB LOWE is in some new movie. Just saying.









Love Love Love,

My non-existent hips don't lie.

I'd probably die for people I would live for, would you?

Hey guys, what's with all the vampire thing in the media these days. I guess just because Twilight was a big hit, they feel like all vampire books should be turned into a picture. But we all know, the only way Twilight could've reached that far was because of the readers of Stephenie Meyer, because the movie did not do her books justice.

I saw the episode of Vampire diaries last night, and I wish I didn't have to wait so long for the next episode.

Are the A-list books any good? I'm thinking about reading all of it before the school-year ends.

I swear I had things to talk about but it just floated away.. I need to start writing things down.

But to fill in my missing words, are these pictures.

Haa, our stupid close ups.

I was breathing..

Love

I had a crush on Bart in the Simpsons episode when he turns into a teen.

Compassion and cruelty reside side by side in one heart. No one is ever one or the other.

I apologize for the lack of updates on this, everything this week and the week before has been slow, but speedy. If that makes any sense at all.

If my title creeped you out a little, rest assured. It was many years ago, and so much younger.

So this video, I made it couple days ago.. and so most of what I'm blabbing about is good as old. I was actually going to delete it and make a new one, but I spent about 15 minutes of my life on this. And these days I'm all about not wasting my time.

WOW. My video didn't upload. So the description below wouldn't make sense to you at this point. I'll try getting the video to work.

Description:

My mistake with the headphones, it's the Oboe.

Wow, I just heard me saying roughly about 7 'like's in one sentence.

Ha, when my brother comes in the room and I'm listening to him, I'm super still.

It is getting boring to me, I'm starting to wonder if you guys are going to watch through it. I'm sucking it up and watching it to finish my descriptions for you.

Wow, when I'm holding up my feet, it doesn't even look like it's my feet I'm holding up.

I was actually supposed to meet up with Christine this day but ended up making a lousy video instead. This day was truly gayed.

By the way, I lost that frog. Guilty.

I need to get my bangs cut.

Another one of my mistakes, it is Monday and everything is settled in. My family pretty much worked to dawn, and things came around pretty quickly. I did not have to wait a month for the furniture. Although, I'll probably have to wait around for my posters.

If you guys are wondering why I said 'harem' in harem pants so weird, I was being a loser because I was on the verge of choking on my spit and ruining the video.

I drag on one topic too long for a human's attention span, it's unbearable.

Overall, a pretty lousy video.

I've been emailing with Kit these days, nice change because I never use my email. It's salli_lee@yahoo.com

Just saying.

Tomorrow, I'm finally getting to see if I can even attend school on it's first day, Thursday. Super anxious because I'm sort of anal about this kind of stuff. Christine is probably annoyed of how much I've complained about school applications.

I've got some tulle to make tutus but I need a good tutu tutorial, because the ones on Youtube are sucking.

How were your labor days? Usually I would always go out with the fam. But we spent today finishing the move-in. Is it weird to say I'm worrying about my parents. They're not as young and resilient as they used to be. I'm afraid that they'll pass out or something from exhaustion.

Audrey Kitching made some Designers Against Aids shirts for H&M. I really want this one, cus it's so fierce. I wanted to check out Katy's and Yelle, but I never got around to looking up when it will be out, or was out.

I want one of those fake Glad scented candles. That flicker and all that. My mom doesn't trust me with one in my room, I know I feel so lame. So I'll have to settle for the fake ones, they're pretty convenient.

I'm sorry this entry is so long, I'm just trying to fit all these things that's been on my mind. But I'll save you guys from the rest and update that later on, if I don't forget.

I'll put some pictures up ASAP because I finally got batteries for my camera!

Good day, and good night.

Love